There is a deep Initiation before Embodiment

There is a stage you reach just before embodiment where everything becomes quiet and still.

An unknown confusion often arises, and it can feel as if you’ve stopped or come to a complete standstill.

This is a completely normal part of this initiation. What you need to know at this point is that you are being guided toward a truth you can no longer ignore.

For me, this moment arrived when the old way of being started dissolving.

The identity I had known began slipping away, and I could feel life asking me to rise.

But first, it asked me to let go.

I went through months of stillness, confusion, resistance, and a deep inner stripping. Patterns came up in waves — victim consciousness, instability, injustice, fear, grief.

They came up to be seen and released, not pushed away.

Each layer opened a doorway into a much deeper truth.

My soul was leading me into a new level of embodiment, one I couldn’t think my way into. I could only surrender to it.

There were days I felt disconnected from myself.

Days where grief came in strong.

And many days where I questioned everything I thought I knew.

But underneath it all, something new was forming — a steadiness I hadn’t felt before and a gentle pull forward that didn’t go away.

This wasn’t another healing layer, this was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. The kind of shift that rearranges your inner world so your outer world can finally reflect who you truly are.

What I’ve learned is this…

Sometimes the soul asks us to be in this place, because it’s the only space where we can hear God again.

It’s the space where the noise drops away and the truth of who you are rises to the surface.

From my experience, purpose doesn’t arrive loudly, it arrives quietly as a recognition, as a calm inner knowing, as the feeling of “this is where I’m meant to be.”

If you’re in that in-between place where the old has fallen away and the new hasn’t fully arrived, nothing is wrong, you’re being held in the exact space your soul needs you.

Sometimes rising begins with falling and sometimes becoming begins with the deep unravelling.

Your soul knows the way. It always has.

If you’re in this space right now, I honor you and encourage you to keep going.